Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
I'm a STUPID BITCH
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch. When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a bitch. Being a bitch means I won’t compromise what’s in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won’t allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch. The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone’s maid. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won’t become anyone else’s idea of what they think I "should" be. I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that! So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, and try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me but you won’t succeed. And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I EMBRACE THE TITLE AND I AM PROUD TO BEAR IT!" Ü
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I am a proud Call Center Agent
Did you know that I was rejected 20 times before I got hired on my first Call Center Experience? No, exaggeration ;) Believe me, I have to undergo too many letters of rejection, that I almost memorize the line of each message, hehehe. But for every failure, I always claim the promise of God which is" For I know the thoughts I have for you, thoughts of good not of evil, thoughts to give you hope and a future".
Life must go on, no matter how many times you've been rejected. You have to prove yourself! You have to find ways to get what you want, what you believe you deserve to have. Do not let any rejections to ever intimidate you. You can be whoever you wanted to be, for as long as you believe in God, confident about yourself, and humble enough to seek for help and guidance. Remember, the adage, No man is an Island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the Continent, a part of the main; if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friends or of thine own were; any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in Mankind; And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; It tolls for thee, by John Donne.
I never thought, that I will be working in 3 different well established and leading call centers in the Philippines. Who am I to compete with fresh graduates, while I only finished diploma in computer studies, a 2 years course, with an average grades? Who am I to be so bless when I have so many inequities?
The only answer I get from all of these questions in my mind, is that whoever I am? perfect or not, God will never leave me alone :) chill out:)
Life must go on, no matter how many times you've been rejected. You have to prove yourself! You have to find ways to get what you want, what you believe you deserve to have. Do not let any rejections to ever intimidate you. You can be whoever you wanted to be, for as long as you believe in God, confident about yourself, and humble enough to seek for help and guidance. Remember, the adage, No man is an Island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the Continent, a part of the main; if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friends or of thine own were; any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in Mankind; And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; It tolls for thee, by John Donne.
I never thought, that I will be working in 3 different well established and leading call centers in the Philippines. Who am I to compete with fresh graduates, while I only finished diploma in computer studies, a 2 years course, with an average grades? Who am I to be so bless when I have so many inequities?
The only answer I get from all of these questions in my mind, is that whoever I am? perfect or not, God will never leave me alone :) chill out:)
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
Are you almost taken?
-----Original Message-----
From: Matulac, Susan E.
To: sansu35@aol.com
Sent: Tue, Sep 22, 2009 10:07 pm
Subject: FW: ALmost, but not quite.
SUSAN MATULAC /Advisor/ BCBS Colorado//Nevada / spark: sematulac
-----Original Message-----
From: Magsino, Gayleen T.
Sent: Friday, September 18, 2009 6:30 PM
Subject: ALmost, but not qui te.
Importance: Low
(ang hindi maka-relate…ewan ko na lang…)
Parang Kayo, Pero Hindi.
She is a 24-year old copywriter. He is an architect. They met and became lovers in college. They broke up last year but remained to be "friends."
They send sweet text messages and he calls her often to make sure
she's okay. They still date. They still have sex.
They don't see anyone else. It is obvious that they still love each
other but when asked about their situation, she doesn't
know the real score. Even her friends are in the dark. "Parang sila, pero hindi."
She works in a telecom. He is reviewing for the board. They are in
the same barkada. They talk on the phone till 4 am. He gives
her chocolates, flowers and CDs even when there is no occasion. Their friends are suspecting something. Bakit sila nagsosolo kapag may overnight inuman? Why does he hold her close on the dance floor? Bakit sila magkaholding hands lagi?
Sila kaya?
"He hasn't admitted anything," she rants. "But I let him hug and kiss me.
Parang kami, pero hindi."
They work together in an ad agency. After office, they would watch
movie, have dinner and stroll at Glorietta. She gave him Harry Potter books for his birthday in exchange for posing as her boyfriend to make an ex jealous. They made out during the company outing in Subic and never talked about it. He said "I love you" once but she wasn't sure if she heard him correctly because they were both drunk then. But one thing she is sure of is her feelings for him. She likes him. And she's assuming that with what he's doing to her and with her, he likes her, too. There's just one hitch: he has a girlfriend!
She is a 28-year-old virgin. He's a 35-year-old bachelor. Both mountaineers, they became close during their climbs. After a few dates in posh restaurants, he brings her to his condo where they would make out.
They have been doing this for months. She wants to believe
that "sila na" but then she's not really sure about it. "We don't talk about it but it doesn't really matter," she'd tell her friends. "What's
important is I am enjoying this -- whatever it is."
The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual
understanding. Pseudo-relationship s. Pseudo- boyfriends.
Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase
where the persons involved are more than friends, but not
quite lovers.
Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of
you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa.
Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi=2 0niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.
This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for
different reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still
love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason. And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.
It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong
nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso
kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna.
Testing lang.
Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo --usually
the guy --may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon sa girl (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa), wala muna kayong relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwa kasi "hindi naman kayo."
This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na kung
naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro."
Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala talagang kasiguraduhan.
So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi
naman=2 0sigurado kung may patutunguhan?
Iba't ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang.
Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa w ala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom. "
Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa
kunwa-kunwarian.
For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think
that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling.
Aminado naman ako na once upon a time, may mga pseudo-relationships din ako. No commitments involved. For the simplest reason that they couldn't commit, because they were either committed to someone else, or that they weren't ready to commit.
My rationalization, "okay na iyun, kesa wala."
Ang habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing. Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa kanya ang message. Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa ang the real thing, puwede na itong pagtiyagaan.
But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship , the emotions were real. And usually, in this kind of set up, ang babae lagi ang lugi.
Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if you feel jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it to yourself.
Ano ka ba niya para magselos?
Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him?
You can't be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya.
Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't.
Because you're not sure if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang.
This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship.
Or if there is a relationship at all.
Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much?
What if you have invested all your20emotions and this man hasn't?
What if you remain faithful to him, not entertaining other guys,
only to find out that he is seeing other girls?
Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationship s, it is fleeting. When a
disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would
be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship . Wala kang
pinanghahawakan.
Kasi sa pseudo-relationship , there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me," hindi "us."
Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi
eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo- relationship, hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And
you will be miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out eventually that the guy is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody else.
Ang h irap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then
you'd end up hurting yourself in the process.
Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh.
Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the consequences.
But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the
process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live
the moment without worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop settling with pseudo-relationship s and wait for the real thing.
When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship with an unavailable
guy, a friend told me, "Sige, kung ayaw mong magpapigil, bahala ka.
Magpakasaya ka.
Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak pagkatapos, dahil tatadyakan kita."
Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo.
Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo pero hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang
doon lang siya ...
almost, but not quite.
THINGS THAT YOU MAY WANT TO DO INSTEAD:
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it
cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As
you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any
other.
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you
have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.
FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person
in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you
get married.
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.
0A
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People
who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might
get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name
calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question
you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great
achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear
someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson
SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect
for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great
friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a
mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The
caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.
From: Matulac, Susan E.
To: sansu35@aol.com
Sent: Tue, Sep 22, 2009 10:07 pm
Subject: FW: ALmost, but not quite.
SUSAN MATULAC /Advisor/ BCBS Colorado//Nevada / spark: sematulac
-----Original Message-----
From: Magsino, Gayleen T.
Sent: Friday, September 18, 2009 6:30 PM
Subject: ALmost, but not qui te.
Importance: Low
(ang hindi maka-relate…ewan ko na lang…)
Parang Kayo, Pero Hindi.
She is a 24-year old copywriter. He is an architect. They met and became lovers in college. They broke up last year but remained to be "friends."
They send sweet text messages and he calls her often to make sure
she's okay. They still date. They still have sex.
They don't see anyone else. It is obvious that they still love each
other but when asked about their situation, she doesn't
know the real score. Even her friends are in the dark. "Parang sila, pero hindi."
She works in a telecom. He is reviewing for the board. They are in
the same barkada. They talk on the phone till 4 am. He gives
her chocolates, flowers and CDs even when there is no occasion. Their friends are suspecting something. Bakit sila nagsosolo kapag may overnight inuman? Why does he hold her close on the dance floor? Bakit sila magkaholding hands lagi?
Sila kaya?
"He hasn't admitted anything," she rants. "But I let him hug and kiss me.
Parang kami, pero hindi."
They work together in an ad agency. After office, they would watch
movie, have dinner and stroll at Glorietta. She gave him Harry Potter books for his birthday in exchange for posing as her boyfriend to make an ex jealous. They made out during the company outing in Subic and never talked about it. He said "I love you" once but she wasn't sure if she heard him correctly because they were both drunk then. But one thing she is sure of is her feelings for him. She likes him. And she's assuming that with what he's doing to her and with her, he likes her, too. There's just one hitch: he has a girlfriend!
She is a 28-year-old virgin. He's a 35-year-old bachelor. Both mountaineers, they became close during their climbs. After a few dates in posh restaurants, he brings her to his condo where they would make out.
They have been doing this for months. She wants to believe
that "sila na" but then she's not really sure about it. "We don't talk about it but it doesn't really matter," she'd tell her friends. "What's
important is I am enjoying this -- whatever it is."
The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual
understanding. Pseudo-relationship s. Pseudo- boyfriends.
Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase
where the persons involved are more than friends, but not
quite lovers.
Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of
you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa.
Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi=2 0niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.
This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for
different reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still
love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason. And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.
It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong
nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso
kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna.
Testing lang.
Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo --usually
the guy --may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon sa girl (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa), wala muna kayong relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwa kasi "hindi naman kayo."
This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na kung
naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro."
Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala talagang kasiguraduhan.
So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi
naman=2 0sigurado kung may patutunguhan?
Iba't ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang.
Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa w ala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom. "
Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa
kunwa-kunwarian.
For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think
that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling.
Aminado naman ako na once upon a time, may mga pseudo-relationships din ako. No commitments involved. For the simplest reason that they couldn't commit, because they were either committed to someone else, or that they weren't ready to commit.
My rationalization, "okay na iyun, kesa wala."
Ang habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing. Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa kanya ang message. Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa ang the real thing, puwede na itong pagtiyagaan.
But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship , the emotions were real. And usually, in this kind of set up, ang babae lagi ang lugi.
Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if you feel jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it to yourself.
Ano ka ba niya para magselos?
Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him?
You can't be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya.
Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't.
Because you're not sure if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang.
This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship.
Or if there is a relationship at all.
Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much?
What if you have invested all your20emotions and this man hasn't?
What if you remain faithful to him, not entertaining other guys,
only to find out that he is seeing other girls?
Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationship s, it is fleeting. When a
disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would
be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship . Wala kang
pinanghahawakan.
Kasi sa pseudo-relationship , there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me," hindi "us."
Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi
eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo- relationship, hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And
you will be miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out eventually that the guy is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody else.
Ang h irap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then
you'd end up hurting yourself in the process.
Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh.
Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the consequences.
But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the
process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live
the moment without worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop settling with pseudo-relationship s and wait for the real thing.
When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship with an unavailable
guy, a friend told me, "Sige, kung ayaw mong magpapigil, bahala ka.
Magpakasaya ka.
Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak pagkatapos, dahil tatadyakan kita."
Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo.
Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo pero hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang
doon lang siya ...
almost, but not quite.
THINGS THAT YOU MAY WANT TO DO INSTEAD:
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it
cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As
you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any
other.
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you
have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.
FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person
in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you
get married.
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.
0A
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People
who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might
get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name
calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question
you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great
achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear
someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson
SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect
for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great
friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a
mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The
caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
migraine moonstar88
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako, nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako? Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nasusuka ako, kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod, kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman, yung totoo
Yung tipong ang sagot, ay di rin isang tanong
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Dahil, di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil, di na
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...
Hanggang dito lang ako, nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako? Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nasusuka ako, kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod, kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman, yung totoo
Yung tipong ang sagot, ay di rin isang tanong
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Dahil, di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil, di na
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...
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